Something old

Yesterday I was thinking and I realized I was on my way to be a very bad person...... I wasn't myself anymore....I was using my head for seriously nothing , or for crappy issues related to whims , and I cannot accept that, but I haven't noticed it, so I couldn't do anything about it before. But honestly, I was reading and remmebering what I used to care about, what I used to think about all the time....and it wasn't related to things.... that is what hurts the most.... how and when did I got to think about those kind of crap, that useless kind of crap??? it was a very bad thing for the band.

So today I woke up in a whole new way , thinking different, seeing things different and everything...but something happened that I wasn't expecting : I actually felt something I haven't felt in YEARS!!!!!! it was amazing.....I could feel the hope, I could feel the joy and I could feel the great things comming up once again, yes I actually felt what I used to feel when I was a skier and a new season was about to begin..... spring comming up, and I can't stop thinking that I'll actually go back to sking this summer.....it's like the best thing ever, the thing that I wait everyday, reason to wake up in the morning once again.....I feel like I wana do things.....and what's best...I feel that everything's going to be just fine.....great things are comming for me, this is going to be a great summer......I haven't got that feeling in so many years , it's awesome, I feel filled with joy . In that matter has been a great day, but when that happens to me....all the other aspects of my life are ok, they get balanced, even if they're going terribly wrong, so thank u life and God for letting me feel this again, I was feeling the lack of life inside me , and when that happens we start dying very slowly, I've been saved one more time.